“One of these days, I’m gonna sit down and write a long letter, to all the good friends I’ve known.” That’s one of my favorite Neil Young lines from a great song on his HARVEST MOON album. And it kind of goes along with my favorite Neil Young song of all time from his original HARVEST album that opens with, “Old man take a look at my life, I’m a lot like you were.”
Tomorrow night Thea and I are having Bob Pope and the wonderful Lisa Sarkis over for dinner. I’ve wanted to do this for some time as a little “thank you” for Bob’s incredible generosity and kindness. He came into my life a year and a half ago and has championed me in ways I can never repay other than carrying on the joy of reading and instilling the wonders of reading in others, which is how I think he would like to be remembered by colleagues when he eventually retires. Like my undergraduate mentor and dear friend, Joe Soldati, I think Bob might have seen something of himself in me when we first met, and I know I saw something of myself in him. On a car ride from the Cleveland airport to Akron after just shaking hands for the first time we started talking about reading and found ourselves quoting aloud lines from the opening paragraph of Gabriel García Márquez’ ONE HUNDRED YEARS OF SOLITUDE. “Many years later, as he faced the firing squad, Colonel Aureliano Buendía was to remember that distant afternoon when his father took him to discover ice.” It’s a great opening line to a magical book and I did not know that day that my own life was to open to a great new chapter with a wonderful man who took a chance on me, just as reading opened the door to a magical world for me in my youth. The door has never closed, and Bob continues to prove that to me every day.
There is a wonderful line I identify with near the beginning of Daniel Defoe’s ROBINSON CRUSOE in which the narrator says, “Being the third son of the family, and not bred to any trade, my head began to be filled very early with rambling thoughts.” As the third of four children in an enormous family with too many children to count I didn’t exactly feel special as a little boy and often fell into the world of my uncontrollable imagination. I once heard Francis Ford Coppola say something to the effect that all people with an artistic impulse seem to have been born at the start with incredible insecurity and have to overcome that insecurity by overcompensating. That was certainly true for me as a child who struggled in school from dyslexia and was placed in special education classes until the middle of the seventh grade. I struggled with horrible spelling problems and reading was definitely no pleasure back then. What I did have going for me was an imagination.
The reader in our family, at least how I remember it back then, was my oldest brother, Todd. Like so many younger siblings, I did not want to be “me” as a little boy. I wanted to be my older brothers, Todd and Scott. I can’t remember exactly how old I was, but I recall a family vacation to Lake Chelan in Washington State and seeing Todd reading TREASURE ISLAND by Robert Louis Stevenson. I was not a reader at the time. I was a boy obsessed with going to the movies and reenacting the plots I loved. My father was one of the first people in our neighborhood to buy a VCR, one of those big ones with the fake wood paneling and large knobs. He would often record movies for us that played on television so we could watch them over and over again and one that I loved was the 1950 Walt Disney version of TREASURE ISLAND. I remember breaking one of my mother’s brooms in half and taking duct tape from my father’s workshop in an attempt to fasten it to my knee to play the part of Long John Silver in my playtime fantasies. TREASURE ISLAND is probably not the first but is certainly one of the first books I read by choice. Todd’s copy was most likely a children’s abridged version, but that doesn’t matter. What matters is that it took me to a place that a movie could not and still cannot. I read it for two reasons; I knew I liked the story from the movie and I wanted to be like my oldest brother who excelled in school and did not have dyslexia.
Coming from a big family, I had built in playmates, but the truth is that I spent a lot of time by myself imagining stories and acting them out. One of the places I would do that was Highland Forest. Had my mother known I was riding my bicycle into the forest, discarding it and setting off to play out the adventures of the characters I loved from books and movies she would have grounded me until puberty. But she didn’t and I had that special place to believe I really was Jim Hawkins in TREASURE ISLAND or David Balfour in KIDNAPPED. And when the adventures Stevenson put to the page ran out, I created my own because I didn’t want them to end. Alone there in Highland Forest, lost within my own imagination and the world of stories, I found a way to feel special. I would run about the trees singing “Fifteen men on the dead man’s chest— / Yo ho ho, and a bottle of rum!” having no idea what rum was at that age, but Coca Cola would do just fine to play the part. I was a suburban boy dreaming inside boy’s adventures. This past November when I heard Joe Meno read at the Winter Wheat Writing Festival and he talked about how much he loved the CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE book series as a kid I perked up. It was my brother Todd who read those books and eventually gave them to me when he was finished. Like so many places of my childhood, Highland Forest is no longer there, having been clear-cut almost completely for development. But my imagination is still there among the vanished trees, believing I am living within a story. I now live in my own house and today my backyard that slopes downward is covered in snow. This morning I went outside to watch the neighborhood children sled down my yard. Three of them had a long sled to fit them all and one was telling the others, “Get in the boat, I get to be the captain this time.” Of course the sled was a boat, and of course that little boy really was a captain!
This time last year Thea and I were getting ready to go on our honeymoon in Scotland. Bob Pope said to me, “You gotta bring your Stevenson.” And he was correct. I took a copy of KIDNAPPED. And as I read it on the plane something wonderful happened. I simply could not imagine a fictional David Balfour or the Scottish landscape I was about to see in person for the first time in my life. As I read, “I” was David Balfour and Highland Forest was Scotland. I was once again a little boy finding a way to feel special through reading.
One of the places Thea and I made sure to visit on our honeymoon was the Writers’ Museum in Edinburgh. It was open but unfortunately its special Robert Louis Stevenson exhibit in the basement was closed. I politely pleaded with the staff. It was early in the morning and Thea and I were literally the only two people there. A kind, old man looked at me and in a husky Scottish accent said, “I can give you ten minutes.” He took us downstairs, opened the exhibit hall, turned on the lights, and left us in the chilly, unheated section of the museum to ponder Stevenson’s life in letters and pictures and personal belongings. In one of the security protected glass cases was a copy of the first printing of TREASURE ISLAND. I stood and looked at it and thought of being that little boy who didn’t feel special who read a book by choice simply because his older brother was reading it and slipping into the world of the imagination. And I thought of Bob Pope. I hadn’t read any Stevenson in a very long time and he was right, I did have to bring him along with me on my honeymoon. A book had opened a new door to my life and as a newly married man I was opening another. The two seemed a perfect fit.
After our ten minutes with the Stevenson collection I was smiling and happy like a little boy as I ascended the stairs to the main floor exhibits. I made a little detour for the small gift shop. There I found a postcard of a portrait of Robert Louis Stevenson and “wrote a letter to a good friend” back in Akron. When I returned to campus weeks later the postcard was taped to Bob Pope’s office door. And every time I walk down the hallway now, there is Stevenson, looking right at me: the once little boy with dyslexia who found his life in the special gift of reading staring at one of the seeds on Bob’s door.
Hungry for it.
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